Health

This week I have been having severe diarrhea and the growth of a wisdom tooth. I must admit that I have been converted into a toilet fan as of late. Having diarrhea is much worse than a nature call. I guess God really answered my prayer for a fit body shape. It is like a punishment for me because of binge eating and partying over the Christmas and New Year countdown. It is suppose to drain off the extra pounds that I have gained over the holidays. Maybe, I should start to sign up for a gym class and having a proper body building protein diet. Over the past month I have been taking in too much food than I have consumed on average over the past few years.

I have discovered that I'm prefer more Western food than Chinese food. I must really congratulate the Chinese people in KL for coming up with a lot of creative food that I would not even ever imagine to have in my whole life. Above that, I have to say that the main reason why I prefer the familiar food is I do not have to suffer shocking taste bud culture. The Chinese food here is too salty with soya sauce. Everything is cooked with soya sauce. I definitely have not taken so much soya sauce ever in my whole life as compared to now. I have even come to a conclusion to ban all Chinese food. Plus I'm sick of rice and noodles. Seriously why Asian like to eat so much of rice and noodles?

The growth of a wisdom tooth signals another mile stone in my life. A transition from being a student to a working adult as an intern for eight months. It is really a change from the old conundrum of the quiet lecture room of an old sulky professor from some middle east country trying to speak English with thick Arabic accent. WTF, I don't understand a single shit of English he is trying to say. Same goes to Indian lecturer with thick Indian accent. Sorry I'm not trying to be racist, but please improve your English before start being a lecturer. It is an insult to my ear to hear broken English being spoken in lecture classes. I will sound rude if I were to correct your English, so better do something about it.

All American Rejects concert

I'll be going to the AAR concert on 31 OCT at Stadium Bukit Jalil
wanna know will be there...

gonna really enjoy my self then.... will take pictures and post in fb n blog here....
can't wait for it!!!!!
one more week to go....

First confession and rejection

so here is my very personal entry on my love life......

So most of friends knew that I was kinda liking a girl... and I have kinda have constant contact through sms n chat almost everyday...
everyone was kinda asking me when I'm gonna tell her.. I was kinda uncertain whether she like me or not... U know I might be on one sided feeling only...
I prefer face to face confession since its more sincere and the right thing to do... but my course mates were like, u should try sms... I tried to do the face to face thing, but I dunno why, I was kinda shy coz its my first time doing this... I dunno, but my tongue was kinda tight and when I wanted to tell her face to face, I just can't...

So I tried the sms as suggested by jing zhi. Maybe the timing wasn't right and everything was kinda not going my way... I was having 2 test, 1 lab report, and 1 presentation to prepare that week... It was kinda heavy one me... I mean the pressure was just building up too much, that I can't concentrate at my studies if I dun tell her... so I sms and told her that I like her and wanted to know whats her feeling... it was kinda late at midnite when I receive the sms.. it goes sth like "I know u like me. I do like you too. But I'm scared that I can't commit" being cranky at midnite, I interpret it as a NO. Thus meaning she kinda rejected me... ( at least thats what I understand from the reply)

So I answered back that " we can still be friends rite" and she says that "we are friends". So I replied "k... good then.... Good nite..." but she never replied back that nite... I was kinda too tired when she reply me that time... I haven't got enough sleep for few days and I kinda just lose a close friendship the previous week. So maintaining friendship was my top priority....

I dunno, But I guess I was like Ted in How I met you mother, when he first had a crush on Robin. At least they still be friends and can hang out together as friends...

I had a long talk to my best friend, Nee Ping. Yeah she's the one that our gang of friends kinda run to tell our problems when we really can't handle it... being a good friend as she is, she kinda listen to my problems and she kinda din want to tell me what to do.... she says that I'll know what to do when I really think it over again... and I have decided to be friend. Any may be some day I'll find someone more suitable for me....

SO, Yeah I'm kinda single and unwanted rite now... well, this is my first time and I don't really expect a miracle out of it... I kinda know that I suck at such things... so Helene here u go... finally you can read my story...

kinda the worst day in my life diz year....

I'll always remember oct 3 2009, the day that really top my most hated day for this year I guess....

I have misunderstood a close friend and I got paid back for what I did... I guess.... I really have betrayed the friendship and no matter what I do the harm has been made and I really dunno how to make up for this....

anyway I was really feeling low that day, and everything was kinda going in the wrong direction... I was asked to never bother in this person's life ever again and you know, I'm kinda never the person being hated by someone...plus the person that I needed the most to just be there to support me at that time just went AWOL and I kinda felt that was it... I suddenly felt that everyone in this world hates me...

at that point I was feeling kinda wanna commit suicide or maybe jump of a bridge you know....
I just lose my total appetite... in fact I'm still struggling to gain back my appetite for the past one week...

the week was kinda full of emotions and stuff that just swept u through u kinda feel like speechless and just wanna surrender...I finally felt why meredith in grey's autonomy just gave up when she fell into the sea... I felt that I have struggle enough and I wouldn't mind if I just die at that time....what difference would it make....

luckily I got a good french fren who kinda hang in their for me....
like a true sister who would help cheer up a cancer sick brother.... she kinda turn my worst sat nite into one of the funny ones... with all the jokes she told me about funny incidences and I will not forget that the waiter at Old Town shop there treat me like a foreigner and treat her like a chinese.... hahahaha.... and she was teaching me how to write sms in chinese coz I dun understand her chinese sms... and having banana split at the "river drain" of Ipoh.... thats how I would call it... also making her miserable on the way back by making her laugh and hiccup when ever she try to stop it... hahaha.... and its kinda fun...

At that point I was kinda thinking that I would lose all the friends to hang out and have fun with... instead as she said, I will find new friends... and sure I did, I start to hangout with south african friends and others that I met... and I really openned up my eye up to more people out there to be friends with....

tq helene for being a big sister whenever I face any problem... at the club watching out for us.... and now being a sister cheering me up when I felt low...gud to know that I can find you whenever I had any problem... I know u kinda felt tired of baby sitting me... hahahaha.... at least I can make u feel miserable by laughing the whole time... yeah u will get a whole nite of giggling and laughing when u combine both of us..... its just how crazy we are... hahaha.....

To risk or not

Ok... I have been getting lots of friends suggesting me to find a gf lately...

I mean I have been single for all my life to start with...

And maybe I'm too comfortable with where I am..

I do admit that sometimes I had a crush on someone.. But maybe I'm too scared to admit it to someone.. I mean I'm kinda the guy who keeps his feeling burried deep inside and will never reveal it.. Its just who I am....Scared and coward I guess....

I mean I dun think I'm brave enough too pop up the question or even ask someone on a date or sth..... especially when the person is a good friend... I'm afraid it will just ruin the whole friendship... I mean it would be awkward to hang out with someone who just rejected u rite...Maybe the fear of being rejected just outweights the chances of the relationship ever happens...

So I'm kinda just happy to hangout with all my friends... I have many friends for different activites that I do.... 

Plus finding the right person that u like is not easy though... mostly are unavailable... since its limited I guess...

So call me coward if u like... but I'll be ur best friend....

David Archuleta 09 KL concert

1. Wanna thank DiGi and particularly Mr. P, Lareina, Brainchild and others for letting me to catch him in concert and have the chance to meet and greet him in person behind the stage...

2. David Archuleta was the nice and cheerful guy with his smile that can melt the girls heart... He's kinda  funny guy in person as well... He's kinda the guy that what you see is what u get( in tv an real life).... He rally got good vocal as well... though it was kinda short for concert... everyone was just chanting we want more when it ended...

3. the crowd was kinda like crazy man.. I mean the girls was shrieking, wailing, shouting, screaming and what more can I describe? they are just spectacular... It was kinda a shock at first when seeing them acting like that....Its like ur at tanjung rambutan suddenly... I been to rainforest music festival but, people were just shouting but not shrieking like at the concert..... really unexpected..... Its like the girls were having an O at that time... 

4. It was my first concert... And it was really fun seriously.... And thanks to all the YA from KL, baya, remy, others....

Independence?

What is national independence? It is the cow head protest in shah alam or the biased police and MACC? Neither any of these events reflect independence. It is just cynical to watch idiot politicians giving out their bigotry and childish press statement. It is even worse than the Bill Cosby’s show “Kid Say the Darnest Things”. It is really appalling to have such morons as our minister. 
I just grow up and realize that the promises of politician especially from BN are really just lip services like those hookers trying to solicit customers. Worst still, they are even willing to sell off their body and mind. These are unprincipled people who just go around and make whimsical remarks as they go like some mental institution patient. With the current rate of how things are in Malaysia especially the most corrupt, racist, intolerant, conservative, and anarchic rule by BN, people’s human rights are being violated and the constant threat of sending Chinese and Indian descendent citizens back is just making everyone sick and tired the current state of affair. 
A warning to BN, you have live beyond your shelf life span and you are gonna be thrown out of office by next election. I for one will never vote for BN ever in my life. After going through the corrupted government affairs, I have harden my heart to vote against BN. I prefer DAP not because they are Chinese people. I never support racial based fundamentals. But I like their Ideology of governing the country. The democrats are ruling all over the world. And soon DAP will rule Malaysia. The lost of Japanese LDP to DPJ this week is a reminder of what is to come. Australia, New Zealand, Canada, US, Germany, and India had shown example of how it will be for a corrupted government.
Democrats are ruling Japan, US, India and Indonesia. It will soon be the case for Malaysia as well. Hopefully once in power, the new governments will make new regulations that will ease the cost of living of all Malaysian irrespective of their race and religion. If the government needs to give money to poor people mostly Malay people, so be it. Help those who need help but not the rich God father s in UMNO with mansion of millions of dollar worth, and omega watches or coats of thousands of dollar that are being stolen from national funds. These people must be sent to imprisonment for swindling and corrupt practices. Justice and love is what all Malaysian hope and wish for this year. Let justice prevail and let the government prosper and shower the poor people with love in terms of better education, housing, living support, job opportunity and personal advancement.